Ding ding dong, da-da-dong In my headphones Christmas drums still rolling strong Shopping lights drip like frost Milk tea sweetness in the air just gets lost Ground floor window, neon snow at night On the glass I catch a small, tired smile in the light Both hands full of bags, losing all control By the sliding doors I sway with the crowd’s slow roll Then a sudden cold wind cuts through the heat A shadow freezes in the middle of the street Plain gray coat and a canvas bag Ordinary sneakers, but his eyes don’t lag Hey, are you Santa Claus for real Or some stranger from a story that I half-conceal He drops his voice and chuckles low, ho ho ho Like he’s reading every secret that I never show Hey, I said you’ve got the wrong girl, ah I’m just here for sale-rack lipstick, flowers, nah He slips one gold-wrapped candy in my palm Says tonight might bend the way you think of calm Third floor speakers play breakup songs I slide past the checkout line that slowly snakes along He’s pushing an empty cart, matching my pace Like a background extra guarding every trace By the cashier glow and plastic snowman He reaches out, scans my card right from my hand Says this is a bonus for the ones who stay too late Hooks a little reindeer on my shoulder like a cape I ask him, how do you get paid For walking lonely hearts through every night parade He winks and says I only charge wishes, time And I pack your little worries, send them back, declined Hey, are you Santa Claus or what Or just staff for some promotion that I half forgot He tries his clumsy one-liner, ho ho ho Still he hits that quiet, empty space inside my soul Hey, I said don’t joke around like that No candy’s sweet enough to flip the world we’ve got He points outside the glass, fresh snow begins to dance Says miracles don’t check your name or circumstance Radio’s counting down a city off to sleep Windows blur to stories soft and deep Suddenly I feel all the words I never said Like letters on a window, curling, unread He asks what I want the most this year I almost say “no more sadness, no more fear” But I just smile and whisper, one good night of dreams He nods like he’s signing some old pact between the beams Hey, maybe he’s Santa after all Or some quiet little glitch behind the shopping mall He turns and melts in the crowd’s fluorescent glow Leaves his footprints and a milk tea cup of warmth below Hey, I’m standing by the sliding door Phone lights up with tiny unread midnight noise once more On the fogged-up glass there’s a red silhouette I know Like he turned and gave one last silent hello Ding ding dong, da-da-dong Those drums keep beating in my heart so strong If next year I walk through this same bright hall I’ll hide one extra wish in my coat, let it fall In case I run into him once more at all